Some Relief

So, i went home this weekend and it was the best thing i could have done for myself... i needed to get away from her... she is bad news and i finally getting to see the type of person she... i can't believe that she "YAY" me leaving... maybe i should be more open about i feel when she leaves the apt... I throw parties when she's gone from the apt... i truly feel that she tries to make me look bad because deep down inside she is unhappy that she has no control of her life whatsoever... i have been always able to speak up for myself and she hasn't been able to do that because she lets others tell her what to do... her boyfriend, her mother (crazy bitch)... when i got home, i hugged my mother and thanked her for not being a crazy mother and for teaching me to always speak my mind... but N-E-Wayz

Being home was wonderful for me... I got to hang out with my boy David (Vanity Phat) and he has lost so much weight... he is looking so good and i am so proud of him... i can't believe we will be graduting and go out into the real world... that's the way he put it... i told him about room mate terror and he told me to not let her get to me... she is just a little scared girl that is unsure of life... i have to say i agree with him on that... but it was wonderful seeing him and talking to him... our talks are always the deepest ones... we always feel better at the end of everything...

Then, I hung out with Izzy (Nigga Chulo) and David (Nigga Babe) and they gave me my nickname (Nigga Brown)... lol... that made us laugh for hours... oh, but before they came over Jason and i were talking... i confessed to him that i wanted to finish what we started... (background on Jason... we dated about 3 yrs ago and just last year he moved into my old room... My mommy rented out my room... and he didn't know i lived there... well one thing lead to another and we realized that we knew each other from the past... when we were dating, we had so great connections... IDK why but it was always passionate and intense... but the downfall is.... he is engaged... and YES as Izzy put it "I'm a homewreaker"... its so bad but we can't help it... but we did hook up and it was amazing for those few minutes... end of background)... and he said that he wanted to as well... well... let's just say that we started it up again but still didn't finish it... Bad Angela!!!

But Izzy, David and I hung out til 3am... partying at a friend's place... Izzy made an amazing drink... so yummy... then we got some food and sang some musicals as we drove to my place... "Niggas, Niggas, Niggas chasing Niggas" (from Your a Good Man, Charlie Brown)... lmao... it was the greatest moment of improv ever!!!! Izzy always knows how to make me forget my worries... love u Izzy!!!

And the last important man in my life i got to hang out with is my BFF Danny (he's not gay but he is so fine) and he always gives me the real... he told me that he didn't come for me to cry on his shoulder but to help me understand the situation at hand and fix it... he always tells me like it is but to not let people walk all over me... "Grad school will always been there and if i don't get in, its ok" as Danny put it so nicely... i have tons of other things happening for me... i can always try again next year.... but i am still waiting on Brown and UCLA... (SCREAM)... but Danny is amazing... he is going to be something amazing... he is such a talented actor... we're probably going to go to the top together... he he he... but he helped me be ok with things and as for the room mate problem... well... he said that she is a young scared girl and knows nothing of the world outside of her own... I should just not let her get to me... and i must start doing that or else she might get a "reality check" from me!!

All in all i was sad to leave everyone in the OC... it was great to visit and to calm myself down... she really tries my patiences... but meh with her and im just going to work on being the best me ever!! Im amazing, talented and beautiful... forget that sorry girl and let's focus on ME!!

Look out everyone... im about to show everyone something wonderful!!

Besos!